Social media break....

“The more time we spend interconnected via a myriad of devices, the less time we have left to develop true friendships in the real world.” 
― Alex MorrittImpromptu Scribe

I have decided to give Facebook a break. I am not an avid contributor, but I do check the newsfeed several times a day. The frequency that I open up the app on my phone is alarming.

Yes, I like to see my kids' updates, however most of the time they post their Instagram pictures - I can see them on that media. I like Instagram, a collection of beautiful photos and some funny hashtags. Instagram has no drama and it entertains me.
Facebook not so much. I noticed that my attitude is changing. I feel that I am missing out on something. Am I getting envious of a friend who checks into the gym in the middle of the day while I am sitting at my desk? That is so crazy, because I would never go to the gym, even if I had the time. Or of the friend whose weekends are fully planned with lunches and parties and road trips and I think, wow, she is having so much fun, which is stupid, as I would not enjoy party-going and similar activities.
I realized that I am losing my true self. I should stop doubting that I have a good life and let that influence me.
Hey, I am happy as I am and who I am, satisfied with what I have. No parties, no gym or yoga, but doing what I like to do. I just have to distance myself and realize that again.
So there, Facebook,  I am taking a break. I am sure that I will not be missed, nor will I be missing anything during that time.

Writing in my sleep

“People think dreams aren't real just because they aren't made of matter, of particles. Dreams are real. But they are made of viewpoints, of images, of memories and puns and lost hopes.” 
― Neil Gaiman

Often times I wake up at 4am and cannot go back to sleep. My mind races, solving all kind of problems, answering any questions that have been floating around during the day and even creating scenarios on how a phone call should be handled. And this all happens in sort of a daze, as I probably doze off a little, and it turns into the weirdest dreams that are so real, it's scary.

I taught myself to concentrate on my breathing to distract from the distracting thoughts; sometimes it works, sometimes they are so much stronger and take over.

This morning I dictated a complete blog entry and now I cannot remember on what topic it was, but it was a good one. Maybe it will appear again and then I will be quick to write it down.

Moon

I tried to catch the strawberry moon and took the dogs out a second time to walk to a bridge that oversees the east. The dogs were restless; little buggers, instead of enjoying an additional evening walk. We waited for the moon to rise, I took a few pictures of these beautiful thistles. And here one of the sunset.
So i am typing this on my cell phone through the android app but do not know how to attach pictures.


I copy/pasted the pictures in later. So here they are:

Moon rising


Sun setting over our neighborhood
Finally a clear picture of the beautiful thistle
And one more, see all those snails attached.


Weltschmerz

Wow, what has happened to humanity? I am speechless and so sad. I wonder how a human being gets to a point where he has no regard for life anymore. Human or animal. What has happened to him, what is going on in his mind. Why?
My hearts go out to all the people who have lost a loved one today or any other day in a such mindless tragedies. Now don't you think that something has to change in regard to gun control?

The more I ponder, the bigger my concerns are for today's children. The roots lie deep. Kids do not have healthy lives anymore, they are enrolled in so many activities that they have forgotten how to enjoy a quiet evening with the family. They have to be entertained constantly. Too much TV, horror movies, action/war console games, brutality everywhere.
And unfortunately the level of education is so low.

My heart aches for man and animal and I want to withdraw even more from the outside world.